This really isnt an EMS issue rather a personal flaw of mine I guess. To say a little more about myself im kind of a lonely single 24yr old EMT. Trust me I hate being single, and at times it can make me and emotional wreck. Actually I think what makes me an emotional wreck is some of the women I allow into my lifes. More times than none I get hurt and unfortunatly it seems to be the same girl hurting me every time. I know I know you ask why do I continue to let her hurt me.
A little back story, this is a girl ive known since I was little. While I was away in the Navy she grew up, huh who would have guessed? I started liking her and we caught up on all the happenings of our lifes and became really close. The down side she had a boyfriend, and wow what a looser he was. Well all of the guys she has dated were loosers and she never really admitted it till they finally broke up. So counting all the loosers she has dated its been 4 in 2 yrs. It seems every time that she has a problem with them she comes running to me. Yup im the guy that treats her nice and right and in the end gets my heart broke. I even got a tattoo the one time she broke my heart, its even a broken heart tattoo. But after a few weeks of her attention another magically appears and takes her away from me. This last time I chalked up my broken heart as me letting it happen. I wish I could say that I wont let it happen again. Seems so hard to let her go though. Advice???
Another subject about her, every time that I bring a subject up to her about breaking my heart she gets all upset and says "Oh its not my fault" or "Whatever". Im seriously tired of burying my feelings for her, forgetting about her and then she pushes her way back into my life. Ive told her many times I cant be just her friend because my feelings for her are to strong. And when we are together we dont act like just friends IE. cuddling, making out, etc. No Sex though. We've never dated and I think that is what the problem is, that we have never triend and failed. But who knows. I just am sick of being so emotional over her. Enough about her, any advice is appriciated though.
So onto the single subject. I hate it! Being an EMT I should have no problem finding a girl right? WRONG! My stupid ass is to shy to let that happen. All the good looking nurses and such, and well all my bad luck. I really hate being lonely.
Enough of my sorry story for now. Eventually I will write in here about my Hurricane Ike experience.
